What Love Is This?

So I have just had a tough week. Pulang dari outing weekend yg kemarin, berasa badan ga enak. Demam, flu, badan nyeri semua. Outing sampai Sabtu malam, Minggu pagi nya bahkan ga bisa bangun dari kasur buat ke gereja. Untungnya sorenya udah enakan, jadi tetep bisa pergi jalan sama BFC. Sedihnya, Senin pagi udah harus berangkat lagi ke Surabaya. Btw hari ini hari Jumat, sampai kemarin masih belum 100% pulih. Jadi yang mau gw share adalah kejadian kemarin.

Hari Rabu malam, pulang kerja-makan-mandi sampai jam 9. Tapi abis itu, langsung tepar banget rasanya. Jadi langsung tidur. Besok paginya, begitu nyalain HP, langsung ada telepon dari mami. Langsung ditanya gimana kondisinya dan diocehin kenapa ga kasih kabar dan ga bisa ditelepon semaleman. She said orang rumah kuatir. Abis itu, seharian bahkan sampe kemaren malem diocehin disuruh ke dokter, atau bahkan pulang ke Jakarta. Dari chat sama mami, entah kenapa dia bilang kalo dia sedih dan merasa bersalah banget ga bisa jagain gw. Bahkan cici gw sampe bilang mami sampe nangis gara-gara kuatir. Ada 1 kejadian lagi. Jadi 2 hari yg lalu itu 1 Juni 2016, 2 tahun koko-dedek. Tapi begonya gw, gw lupa banget. Bukan karena sakit jadi lupa. Baru inget pas dikasih tau Adel kemarin pagi. Biarpun sedih, dia ga marah sama sekali.

Di perjalanan ke kantor, gw cuma bisa nangis, wondering “What have I done, to receive this much love? I don’t deserve it at all”. Apa hubungannya gw yang sakit orang lain yang nangis? Inget tanggal aja ga, tapi bisa disayang sampai kayak gini. What love is this? I can’t even write proper words to describe what I’m feeling, what I’m wondering about. But I can only say: your love helps me understand God’s love. And I am really really thankful for that.

A Box of Pizza

Can you imagine ordering a pizza? And the pizza guy shows up at your hotel room tonight. And he’s got your pizza but he doesn’t have a box, he just has it on his hand. And you don’t know where that hand has been, you don’t know what he’s been doing with that. And can you imagine? You know the first question you would ask him when he stands there and says “Hi, did you order this pepperoni pizza?”, the first question you would ask is “Where is the box?”. Because I was expecting the product to come in a vessel. I was expecting the pizza to come in a box. What I want you to understand is: 

The box is only worth 39 cents. 

It’s not very valuable, but it takes on a tremendous important value, because of what is placed in. 

The box does not give value to the product, it’s the product that gives value to the box. 

We are just the vessel, and Christ is in us, and we shouldn’t get puffed up when God starts using us, we are just the 39 cents box. 

What I’m saying to you is: 

You don’t have to be great, 

you don’t have to be super good looking and look like movie star, 

you don’t have to be super talented, 

but you do have to be CLEAN 

and you have to be EMPTY. 

And if you just be clean and be empty, 

God says:

If you give me a vessel, 

I will give you miracle, 

I will give you my all, 

I will give you my purpose, 

I will give you will for your life. 

And that is enough

Those who cleanse themselves from the latter will be instruments for special purposes, made holy, useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work

- 2 Timothy 2:21 NIV -